Amelia Marie Malik… now you listen to me. You are not a failure. I know things didn’t go as planned and we had Asad and you quit school to be a mother. That is not something to be sorry about or make you feel like you’re not good enough. What you did was right. You just took a long break that’s all. That’s all it is. Like how I’m on a break right now. It’s okay that you haven’t written much. You’ll get to writing again soon. I remember when you would always show me what you wrote and how proud you were. I just want you to feel like you have something else other than family to be proud of. I want you to finish your dream even if you are happy and satisfied with what you have. Hey, you don’t know that. Look, remember that surprise I told you about that I had to leave for? I have to tell you about it. Are you ready?
I’m not saying I am a failure… I just I don’t know. I’m not the best out there… I don’t have any problems with being a mother instead of writing though, Zayn. Our kids are way more important that writing.. It’s different with you, though. You are something so you can have breaks.. I am nothing.. I am just a girl who is married to you and has two kids.. no one will ever take me seriously. That was because writing was the only love I had other than you. But now I have three loves and that is way more important than pursuing something like writing when you are already providing for us.. I just.. I’m scared. Why should I write when it could keep me away from all of you guys.. or what if it becomes nothing. I will waste time with you guys and I don’t want to do that.. I don’t want to burden you guys with something that may not be any different than what I am doing now. My dream isn’t important baby.. not anymore. Yes, I remember the surprise.. I’m ready, what is it?
Mia, stop right there. You’re not nothing. You are an amazing writer. Don’t you remember Tennessee and LA with Jana Kramer? She sang one of your songs. The lyrics and everything was something they’ve never seen before. The power throughout the song left a lot of people wanting more. Don’t give up on writing. I won’t let you do that. I know how great you are of a writer and that you only share it with me, but what if you showed your music to more people hm?
Yes I am Zayn… I have nothing to be proud about with my writing but our song.. I haven’t done anything. I dropped out of school.. I am not good.. at least not anymore. That was then.. not now. Have you even seen me write anything lately? I just.. I don’t know. I tried and tried but then we had our kids and things slowly became less and less about music for me to the point where I haven’t written much.. Zayn, no one in their right mind would even glance at my work.
Because you are my husband… I don’t want you unhappy and unhappy with me. I just want you to be happy.. I want our kids happy and that will make me happy. I told you that I am a very simple girl, Zayn. I don’t need anything big.. I just want you guys happy and healthy.
I do but it doesn’t get me anywhere. I’m not good and I don’t want to waste time with your or the kids doing something that’s going nowhere when I can just let you follow your dreams beause you are somewhere with that… I’m not good and I’m tired of just being so-so. I’m not gonna be anything with writing.. I just won’t.
I don’t understand. I was at the window, I watched you die Robin.